With Me or Without Me

Last time we spoke,
You begged me to go
Said you couldn’t do this
You needed to be alone.

Here we stand
Face to face again
And I find your arms around me,

And you are holding me
Part of you is owning me again
And I want this,
But I don’t.
Because it is just a matter of when..

When will you grow tired
Of holding me in the dark
When will you grow weary
Of toying with my heart.

I want to be with you
Body and soul
I never expected love –
That’s not a place I will go.

Please don’t try to shut me down once more
I can’t bear to find another locked door,
vFor which I have no key

Please decide,
Are you with me or without me

Tara Johnson
1999